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Finding Joy in Music.

 Dear Friends,

I will be honest with you. I had a rough couple of weeks in the middle of February. It was just another day and as I sat down on at my desk to start another day at work and I just yelled out in frustration out into the universe "I HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE." Marcin was also in the office and gave me a look that pretty much said, "Yep, she lost it." In truth, I did. 

Since then, I gave every aspect of my life about 15% because I was trying to hold onto the 35% percent of my sanity and actively get back 50% of sanity back.

I did all the self-care tips that one reads on Buzzfeed, Pinterest, podcasts, and blogs. Yoga, go for a run, take a bath, etc. Marcin even started to take both Caesar and Lana out for long walks so that I can have time to myself. I started writing in a journal again. I ticked all the "self-care" boxes and probably got my sanity back to 60%.

But there is one thing that always take me to such highs - Music. 

I don't need music to be deep of have hidden meaning. I am a Top 40's girl through and through, but I do have songs in my playlists that were never released as a single that I love. I listen to these songs, think of choreography or music video ideas.

I get a buzzy thrill in my whole entire body when I hear some of these songs. I listen to them on my walks with Caesar and I find myself hopping along, almost dancing through the farmlands of Ilsfeld. 

I smile, I laugh, I sing, I just allow myself to be. You know that saying, Dance like no one's watching. That's my motto. If music can turn my mood or my day around, then I am going to lean in hard and sing and dance to my heart's content.

I hope you have something like that for yourself. If you do, then 100% lean in and USE IT!

With Love,

Jessica


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